Then I thought of the little Jewish girl standing in the shower waiting to be gassed by the Nazi guard in the Second world-war - he wrote before he died that he tried to separate her from her little brother but she said "leave him alone, my precious brother will die with me". I couldn't go another step towards suicide - if she in her hopeless, fatal situation could be that brave and dignified THEN SO CAN I - AND SO CAN YOU.
Of course you can't handle it - you were never meant to - but in this stupid world everyone thinks they can and makes us feel we can - you can't - and you're filled with pessimism because you think you can and ought. Can you put one foot in front of the other ? Have you ever thought how many bones and muscles worked together for you to take that simple step ? Of course, like all the rest of us, you just take that for granted - but somebody or some power held all your bones and muscles and nerves together - and holds them together now.
You can't kill yourself - because you don't belong to yourself - you didn't make yourself - you are a miracle - made of thousands of bones and muscles - and millions of cells - with eyes better than any camera - and a brain more complex than any computer. If you destroy yourself, you destroy something that no one in the world can make !
You want to end it all because you think you're the only one who can and ought to run your life - that's crazy - you have been put here to do something that no one else can - your maker has counted every hair on your head - and this is the greatest moment in your life FOR HIM - he has at last some chance of getting you to give up and let him do with you here what he originally wanted SO FORGET SUICIDE AND LET'S TALK ABOUT A WAY OUT !
Living Daily in Reality